It is difficult to look back over your life, knowing what you know presently, and not feel as though you could be so much further along. One of the first thing that I had to come to accept is that there is no lack and no loss in God. It’s easy to say, if I had just known this 10 years ago. But every experience and every place where I found myself, God was molding, shaping and training. I must celebrate who God is called me to be. In this time of training I have to learn to move from the natural realm into the spirit realm. God is allowing me to see those areas in my life that need to be shaped.
Psalms 139: 24 Search me, O God, and know my heart: try me, and know my thoughts: 24 And see if there be any wicked way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.
That is such an easy scripture to read. It even sounds like the right thing to do. But, when you take the time to look at every thought and idea. When you take the time or to examine your actions and what you should have done often you find that he might have done things differently. And you come to realize that the excuse that you give, “That’s just who I am” is not going to do.